Brian Laundrie Confession: The notebook appears to contain the cause of Gabby Petito’s death

And it contains what appears to be Laundrie, that she killed Petito.

On one of the pages it says in part, quote: “I ended her life.

The FBI recovered the 2021 notebook near his remains in Florida.

Laundrie family attorney Steve Bertolino released the following statement along with the documents.

Today, Petito family attorney Patrick Reilly and I met with the FBI in Tampa to sort through and take possession of Gabby and Brian’s personal belongings. This was a pre-arranged exchange to allow both the petitos and the laundries to receive what belonged to their respective children. As part of this property restitution while in FBI custody, I was given Brian’s notebook. I want to share with the public the note the FBI alluded to when they said on January 21, 2022 that Brian accepted responsibility for the death of Gabby Petito. Although I have decided to publish this letter for the sake of transparency, I will not comment further as court cases are pending. These are Brian’s words:

Here is a transcription of the diaries provided by ABC News

PAGE 1

gabi,

I wish I was right by your side I wish I could talk to you now. I would go through each of our memories and look forward to the future even more. But we lost our future. I cant live without you. I lost every day that we could have spent together. Every morning. I will never be able to play with (illegible) again. Never go hiking with TJ. i loved you more than anything I can’t stand looking at our photos, remembering great times, because it doesn’t keep me going. When I close my eyes, I’ll remember lying on the roof of the van and falling asleep to the sight of an (illegible) crystal geyser. I will Always Love You.

PAGE 2

When you read Gab’s diary, look at photos from our life together, flip through old maps, you don’t want to live a day without her. If you know that you wake up every day without her, you wouldn’t want to wake up. I’m sorry for anyone this will affect. Gabby was the love of my life, but I know (illegible) many. I am very sorry for your family because I love them. I would consider her younger siblings my best friends. I am sorry for my family, this is a shock to them and a terrible sadness.

PAGE 3

They loved just as much if not more than me. A new daughter for my mother, an aunt for my nephews. Please don’t make it difficult for them. This (illegible) as an unexpected tragedy. We rushed back to our car and tried to cross the fumes from (illegible) before it got too dark to see, too cold. I hear a splash and a scream. I could hardly see. I couldn’t find her for a moment, calling her name. I found them breathing (illegible) gasping (two lines here too smudged to read) the scorching hot national parks…

PAGE 4

…in Utah. The temperature had dropped to freezing and she was soaking wet. I carried her as far as I could down the stream to the car, stumbled, exhausted, in shock, when my (illegible) and knowing I couldn’t carry her safely. I made a fire and spooned it up so close to the heat, it was such a thing, had been frozen too long. I couldn’t see at the time that I should have started a fire first, but I wanted her to get back to the car from the cold. From where I set the fire, I had no idea how far away the car might have been. Only…

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…knew it was across the creek. When I pulled Gabby out of the water, she couldn’t tell me what hurt. She had a small bump on her forehead that eventually got bigger. Her feet hurt, her wrist hurt, but she was cold and shaking violently. She kept making pain noises while wearing them. Lying beside her, she said little, teetering between violent convulsions, panting in pain, and begging for an end to her pain. She fell asleep and I shook her awake, afraid that if she had a concussion, she shouldn’t close her eyes.

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She woke up in pain, starting her whole painful cycle all over again while angry that I was the one waking her up. She wouldn’t let me try to cross the creek, thinking like me the fire would go out in her sleep and she would freeze to death. I don’t know the extent of Gabby’s injuries, only that she was in extreme pain. I ended her life. I thought it was gracious that she wanted it that way, but now I see all the mistakes I made. I (illegible)., I was in shock. But from the moment I decided to take her pain away, I couldn’t go on without her.

PAGE 7

I rushed home to spend the remaining time with my family. I wanted to go north and have James or TJ kill me, but I didn’t want them to serve time in jail for my mistake, although I’m sure they would have liked to. I don’t change my life out of fear of punishment, but because I can’t bear to live another day without her. I lost our entire future together, every moment we could have cherished. I’m sorry for the loss of everyone. Please don’t make life difficult for my family, they lost a son and a daughter. The most beautiful girl in the world, Gabby, I’m sorry.

PAGE 8

I killed myself by that creek hoping animals would tear me apart. That it might make some of their family happy.

Please pick up all my things. Gabby hated people who made garbage.

On Wednesday, Lawyers for both families faced each other in a Florida courtroom in relation to a civil lawsuit filed by the Petito family against the laundry three months ago.