A Kansas blogger who struggles with eating disorders claims weightlifting and extreme body modification helped him deal with trauma and “beat” his eating disorder.
Jessy Kirkpatrick, 27, who is non-binary and uses they/them pronouns, had a healthy relationship with food as a child.
However, in their late teens they began to suffer from anorexia, which they believe stems from severe trauma they experienced as a child.
Kirkpatrick turned to modifications to heal her mental health. Extreme body modifications include a stretched septum – the structure that separates the right and left nostrils – multiple lip piercings, a stretched tongue, a stretched lip, stretched nostrils and silicone horn implants in her forehead that make her look like a devil.
Jessy Kirkpatrick, 27, who is non-binary and uses they/them pronouns, says of her radical changes: “My sleep routine got better.” I had less pain and was able to function during the day.
Kirkpatrick has also undergone extreme body modifications, including a stretched septum – the structure that separates the right and left nostrils – multiple lip piercings, a stretched tongue, a stretched lip, stretched nostrils and silicone horn implants in her forehead that make her look like a devil let
Kirkpatrick said: “When I was 16 I first struggled with anorexia and my weight dropped to a frightening 98 pounds.”
Kirkpatrick said they had eating problems so severe that they vomited blood after eating even the smallest portions.
“I was exhausted and there was nothing I could do about it,” they added.
They also suffered from anxiety and tachycardia, a heart rate of more than 100 beats per minute.
“In the years that followed, I was trapped in an anorexia cycle. Just when I thought I had gained control, I relapsed.
“My condition worsened and developed into multiple food allergies, which made eating – and sticking to food – even more difficult.”
Kirkpatrick later faced other medical challenges when they were diagnosed with a damaged spinal disc caused by physical abuse and fibromyalgia, a chronic condition that causes widespread pain and tenderness throughout the body.
They started bodybuilding and started changing their bodies.
Kirkpatrick said: “My sleep patterns have improved.” I had less pain and was able to function during the day. I could lift objects without literally breaking a rib, and best of all, I felt happier than I had in years.
“When I look in the mirror now, I don’t see a skeleton; I see a strong and powerful being. I can’t tell you how satisfying this is.
“Anorexia has taken everything from me. It changed the chemistry of my brain and turned me into a walking corpse. I was physically and mentally dead.
“For me, being muscular means I can beat my eating disorder, no matter how often it recurs; I refuse to give up. I will not go down without a fight, even if I am my own worst enemy.’
They estimate they have spent about $12,000 on these procedures over the past decade.
Kirkpatrick looks much more subtle before her missions
Kirkpatrick estimates they’ve spent about $12,000 on body modification procedures over the past decade
Kirkpatrick said: “My mandala tattoos represent my Buddhist religion and remind me of my ability to rise above violence and hate.”
“My nostrils are my favorite feature. They show me that I can push my body beyond what it should be capable of, regardless of the rigors and constraints of confinement.”
Kirkpatrick’s other upcoming body modification plans include enlarging the nasal septum and lip piercing, splitting the tongue, adding full-body tattoos, adding more implants and horns, adding “world record nostrils” and tattooing the eyeballs, an irreversible procedure The dye contained in it is injected into the white part of the eye and slowly spreads over the entire area.
In addition, they also started strength training on the advice of their doctors.
“My doctor said exercise might help relieve the symptoms, even if just a little,” they said.
Kirkpatrick started going to the gym daily to strengthen his legs and biceps. Swimming, tennis and yoga became part of her regular exercise routine and “an outlet for my pain and anxiety.”
Shortly after they began lifting weights and transforming their bodies, Kirkpatrick noticed their physical and mental health improving.
Kirkpatrick’s other upcoming body modification plans include nasal septum and lip piercing enlargement, tongue splitting, full body tattoos, adding more implants and horns, “world record nostrils,” and tattooing her eyeballs
Despite the progress Kirkpatrick has made, they still struggle with nutrition, although cooking their own meals is therapeutic.
They said, “There is comfort and control in knowing exactly what ingredients I am eating.”
The National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) estimates that between 0.3 and 0.4 percent of young women and 0.1 percent of young men suffer from anorexia at any given time.
Anorexia is also common in teenagers and young adults. NEDA estimates that young people between the ages of 15 and 24 with anorexia nervosa are ten times more likely to die than their peers who do not have the disorder.
According to Mayo Clinic, symptoms include extreme weight loss, thin appearance, abnormal blood counts, fatigue, insomnia, dizziness or fainting, bluish discoloration of fingers, thinning or falling hair, constipation, cold intolerance, low blood pressure, etc. Absence of menstruation in women.
While not everyone appreciates or supports Kirkpatrick’s love of body modification, they have seen a warmer reaction from their TikTok followers and are happy with the progress they have made.
They said: “People often tell me that I’m going to hell for the way I look, and they never stop talking about how much I’ve ruined my body.” They call me ugly; They call me a freak.
‘But, you know what? I believe it is my choice who I want to be and what I want to look like. I am the one who knows what is best for my health, my pain and my discomfort.
“I am the boss of my own transformation because in the end it really comes down to how I see myself.”