Why Kim Kardashian felt ‘guilty’ about her relationship with Pete Davidson

Let it out. During the premiere of the third season of The Kardashians, Kim Kardashian Provide insight into how she dealt with it KanyeWest‘s various social media outbursts – including when her ex-husband claimed she was having an affair with drake.

The 42-year-old reality star told his mother Kris Jenner On Thursday, May 25 episode, she said she “had an anxiety attack” and was “close to tears” all morning when Kanye’s behavior made headlines.

“Even with all the madness – with everything Kanye says about us – I never comment. I never post. He invented the craziest story about you and [my sex tape] and we are silent. We’re silent despite all the lies and stuff,” Kim said, referring to 45-year-old Kanye. She implied that 67-year-old Kris leaked her daughter’s infamous sex tape in 2007.

The couple, who share North (9), Saint (7), Chicago (5) and Psalm (4), separated in 2021 and divorced in 2022. During their split, the 45-year-old rapper often took to Instagram to criticize Kim’s co-parenting skills, her romance with the then-boyfriend Pete Davidson and Kris’ motherly nature.

“I think at this point I’m just going to assume whatever I write to Kanye is going to be on the internet,” Kim noted in a confessional. “I think I can handle anything. It just breaks my mom’s heart — that she has to deal with so many different sides of people that come her way.”

During their conversation, Kris reminded her daughter that she “can’t control anyone else” and that Kanye “is doing this to himself.”

“Even just the way he’s looking down on me because of my tape and bringing it up all over town and in the media – thanks for reminding people again,” Kim replied. “All of his shenanigans – I don’t even know what the hell to call it – will someday do a lot more harm to the kids than my video ever will. And I have to sit here and never say anything because I know that one day my kids will appreciate that, and I know that’s the best thing for them. And by the way, I’m the one who could go wrong, and when I get in the car, the kids want to hear Dad’s music every day. And I think, ‘He’s the best!’ Yes.’ And I put it on and we sing along and I’m dying inside because I’ll always be his biggest cheerleader to them.”

Kim pointed out that in some interviews, Kanye claimed he would still be his ex’s “eternal protector,” but then he criticized her in other posts.

“He’s the one who hurts me the most. He was the one who started the rumor that I was having an affair with Drake. “Our full marriage, he publicly accused me of that,” she said. “So the person most supposed to protect me – publicly – would accuse me of having an affair throughout our marriage. I really can’t imagine him considering himself a protector.”

Kanye, who has feuded with Drake over the years, initially publicly discussed speculation about Kim and the Degrassi alum in 2018. Kim has denied ever having been in a relationship with the “One Dance” musician.

In a confessional, Kim claimed the rapper asked for “approval” for what she says about him on The Kardashians. “And I’m going to say, ‘Well, you just talked about me in that song, that song, that interview, that interview, and you didn’t ask my permission.’ And I never say anything bad,” she said. “I never say anything negative. When I say I’m exhausted, I feel bad. I’m bloody exhausted!”

During her conversation with Kris, Kim got emotional.

“Can everyone around me just pull themselves together so I can fucking freak out? Just once!” she exclaimed. “I only want to lose it once. I want to have a bad day – and I can’t. I can’t even get overwhelmed and have a bad day because nobody else can handle this crap. … It just felt bad, you know, and I don’t know why I feel bad. … I do not know what to do. I don’t want to be part of this narrative. And it’s like, “When will this ever end?” It probably never will. … This is what I’m stuck with for the rest of my life.”

The tears continued in her confessional. “I don’t want to talk about it anymore,” she said.

When a producer asked, “What makes you cry?” Kim replied, “Everything.”

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